Are we still best friends?

When I miss you, I re-read our old conversations and smile, even laugh, like an idiot. Now I wonder, where are you? I texted you, but you never texted me back. I miss our old days when I told you about the secret of ‘permen mint’ and you gave a laugh, a loud laugh, then said what a stupid theory! Or one day when we were having sahur together and doing ‘hompimpa’ to decide who should clean all the plates.

Are we still best friends? I ask my self everytime I remember of you. It’s hard to act like we are never knowing each other. I was sorry for saying that stupid words because something you did (no mention). I was shock, I got angry and of course disappointed. But I realized I shouldn’t act like that. I beg your pardon. Please..

You’re stupid. You fail. You’re weird. You are not perfect but that’s okay. Because I’m like that too. We laugh at the randomest things. You know my ugliest side, and so do I. eventhough we disagree sometimes, we never fight. When I was sad, you were always there to make sure I was okay. Now, everything has changed. You're just like a stranger.

How can I tell you that I really lose you? Your laughter, your idiot face, your uproar and all about you. Looking back to our memories, for eight years, It’s not something easy to make a deal that we have to forget each other. Hard for me. I don’t know what I am typing. I just feel that, I miss you, really deep and thick.